Always, Helena said. "Straight is the only way I know how to be with dancers. The floor doesn't lie, and neither should I."
Odette let out a breath she had been holding. Daphne felt tears come, and blinked them back, because she had cried enough in front of important people.
But understand this, Helena said, and her voice was gentle again. "Putting your name forward is not the same as winning. The board will meet. He will fight it. And there will be days when it feels like the fight is the whole story, and the dancing is just the excuse. On those days, you must remember that the dancing came first. It was yours before any of us, and it will be yours after."
On the bus home, Daphne pressed her forehead to the window and watched Charleston slide past in the other direction. Odette sat beside her, silent, her hand resting lightly on Daphne's arm. Daphne thought about fights, and boards, and money, and men who believed that everything they paid for belonged to them. She thought about the silver shoes in the drawer, and about the borrowed shoes in her bag, and about the waltz that had lived in her body since she was seven years old. A scholarship would mean a fight. She had known, in her bones, that nothing in her life had ever come without one.
But for the first time, the fight would be for something she had chosen β not something done to her. And that, she decided, watching the city go by, made all the difference in the world.
Braddock learned of the audition on a Tuesday, and by Wednesday morning Helena Marsh's telephone was ringing.
She knew it would be him before she picked it up. Wendell Crowe had already telephoned her secretary with a message that was not quite a threat and not quite a request: Mr. Braddock would like a word about the conservatory's standards. Helena let the phone ring twice, poured herself a glass of water, and answered in the calm voice she used for difficult parents.
Mr. Braddock, she said. "To what do I owe the pleasure?"
You know very well, he said. His voice was smooth, the way expensive things are smooth, and underneath it was a blade. "I understand you auditioned a girl from the Whitmore Home. A girl who embarrassed my foundation on a public stage."
She did not embarrass anyone, Helena said. "She danced. The embarrassment was yours, and it was self-inflicted. I saw the video, as did half the city."
There was a pause, and in it Helena could hear him deciding which weapon to use. He chose money, because money had never failed him.
Let me be plain, Helena. The conservatory receives a significant annual gift from me. The scholarship fund bears my name. The new wing, which your students will enjoy for the next fifty years, exists because I wrote a check. I would hate to see those arrangements reconsidered. I would hate even more to see the board ask why its artistic director is spending the fund's resources on a charity case with no training and a history of public disruption.
Helena closed her eyes. She had known this call was coming since the day she put Daphne's name forward. Knowing did not make it easier.
Let me be plain in return, she said. "Daphne Wallace auditioned fairly. She danced well. Her result stands, and I will not falsify it, withdraw it, or pretend it did not happen. If you want to take your money elsewhere, that is your right, and I will explain to the board exactly why you did it. But I will not lie about a child's dancing to protect your pride."
Another pause, longer this time. When Braddock spoke again, the smoothness was gone. "You will regret this."
Perhaps, Helena said. "But not today."
She hung up, and sat for a long time with her hands around the glass of water, watching the light move across her office wall. She thought about the first time Braddock had tried this with her, years ago, when she had wanted to admit a boy from a housing project whose family could not pay the fees. Then, too, there had been a telephone call, and a reminder about a gift, and a suggestion that standards must be upheld. Then, too, she had refused β and the boy had gone on to dance in a company in Atlanta, and Braddock's gift had arrived on schedule anyway, because men like him rarely punish the institutions they need to impress. She held onto that memory the way a sailor holds a rope: not as a guarantee, but as proof that the storm had been weathered before.
Then she did the practical thing. She telephoned two board members she trusted β a retired judge who believed in rules, and a doctor's widow who believed in children β and told them, plainly, what had happened and what was at stake. Neither promised her a vote. Both promised her a hearing. It was, Helena thought as she set the phone down, the most she could honestly ask for, and it would have to be enough.
By noon, the compromise had arrived, delivered by Crowe in a letter so polite it could have been a condolence card: the audition result would stand β Helena had made that impossible to erase β but the scholarship itself was frozen, pending board review. No money would move. No place would be offered. Not yet. Not while the board deliberated, which, Crowe implied, could take a very long time.
Helena telephoned Odette that evening, and Odette came to the home after dark and told Daphne herself, sitting with her in the empty hall where the midnight lessons happened. Daphne listened without crying, which worried Odette more than tears would have.
So I danced well enough, Daphne said, "and it still isn't enough."