âSomething like them,â he said. He took the cartridge from her fingers, slid it into the leather loop of his belt, and picked up the auger again. âGo inside and help Aiona with the water buckets. We need four full casks set by the chimney. If they throw pitch on the shakes, we wonât have time to run to the pump.â
She nodded once, slid off the keg, and ran across the yard, her head ducked against the biting sleet.
Elias watched her small figure slip through the cabin door. He set the auger down on the workbench, leaned his palms against the rough timber, and let his head drop between his arms.
Why are you here, Elias?
The question had been circling his ribs like a wolf around a dying campfire ever since he had helped them hoist that first spruce beam. He had no stake in this dirt. If Vanceâs men burned the cabin to the ground, Elias could saddle his gelding, ride over the pass into the Idaho territory, and never look back. He had thirty double eagles sewn into the lining of his saddle; he could buy a small outfit in the Bitterroot, hire two hands, and live out his days without ever having to answer to another living soul.
Instead, he was boring rifle ports into a widowâs shutters and teaching a twelve-year-old girl how to clean government brass.
He remembered Captain Millerâs face outside of Gainesâ Mill, lying in the ditch with his belly torn open by canister shot, whispering through blood-frothed lips: âHold the bridge, Elias. Don't let them cross the bridge.â And Elias had held it, with forty men against two Georgia regiments, until only five of them were left standing, and the bridge didn't matter anyway because the flank had broken three miles to the south and the whole army was in retreat.
You couldn't hold the line. That was the lesson the war had taught him. The world was too big, too cruel, and too full of men with rifles for one man to make a difference by planting his boots in the dirt.
A shadow fell across the workbench.
Elias straightened up, his hand dropping by instinct to his side before he caught himself.
Aiona stood in the doorway, wrapped in an old buffalo coat that had belonged to her father. The high fur collar framed her face, her cheeks flushed with the heat of the cabin, her dark hair dusted with white crystals of sleet. She carried a plate with two thick slabs of cold roast venison and a wedge of hard cheese.
âYou havenât eaten since the sun came up,â she said.
Elias took the plate, setting it on the corner of the bench beside the pile of oak shavings. âI wanted to get these hung before the light went out.â
âThe light wonât go out for two hours,â she said. She stepped inside the lean-to, out of the wind, pulling the door half-shut behind her. The small space immediately felt smaller, filled with the presence of her wool coat, the smell of damp hide, and the steady warmth of her breath.
She looked at the shutter on the bench, her fingers tracing the smooth, angled bore of the firing port.
âYouâve done this before,â she said.
âEvery cabin along the border had ports like that during the bushwhacker days,â he replied, picking up a piece of the venison and tearing a bite off with his teeth. âA man who shoots out of an open window is just asking for a bullet between his eyes. You stay back in the dark, three feet from the hole. They canât see your muzzle flash until itâs too late.â
Aiona looked up at him, her eyes steady, unblinking in the gray light. âDid you have a farm, Elias? Before the army?â
Elias chewed slowly, looking out through the crack of the door toward the grey ridges of the mountains. âMy father had eighty acres in the Shenandoah. Limestone soil, red clover, thirty head of milk cows. We had an orchard of winter apples that my grandfather planted when he came out of Pennsylvania.â
âWhat happened to it?â
âSheridan,â Elias said simply.
The name needed no explanation. The whole border knew what had happened in the Valley in the autumn of sixty-four. The crow that flies over the Shenandoah must carry its own rations.
âThey burned the barns,â he said, his voice flat, devoid of rage, stripped clean of anything except cold memory. âBurned the mill. Drove off the stock and cut down the apple trees so they wouldn't bear fruit for ten years. My father tried to stop two troopers from pulling down the smokehouse. They didn't even shoot him. Just hit him over the head with an iron picket pin. He died three weeks later with the blood still running out of his ears.â
Aiona did not look away. She didn't offer the easy, hollow words of pity that city people gave when they heard about the war. She just stood there in the drafty lean-to, her dark eyes reflecting the gray light of the storm, absorbing the weight of what he had said.
âAnd you went after them?â she asked.