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"Ma will worry," Tess had said at the gate, grinning, because Tess had taken to calling her Ma in the last few months, first in a whisper, then aloud, then as if it had always been true. "You worry too much, Ma."
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"I worry exactly the right amount," Louisa had answered, and Tess had laughed and run for the schoolhouse path, her braids flying.
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Now the wind was tearing at the cottonwoods along the creek, and the first fat drops of rain were striking the porch boards, and Louisa was already reaching for her shawl when the lightning came โ a white fork that seemed to split the sky directly above the schoolhouse hill โ and a crack of thunder so close it shook the cups in the kitchen cupboard. A second later, through the roar of the rain, she heard a sound she had never heard before and hoped never to hear again: a thin, wrong, metallic cry, like a voice breaking in the middle of a word.
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She was out in the rain before she had decided to go, running up the hill with her skirts plastered to her legs, and she found Ansel and the children standing in the schoolyard, soaked to the skin, staring up at the little brass bell above the schoolhouse door. It hung crooked in its frame, and down one side of its bright curve ran a jagged dark line, fine as a hair, where the lightning โ or the fall of a branch the lightning had torn from the cottonwood โ had struck it. Ansel had already climbed the ladder and taken it down, and he held it in both hands as carefully as a man holds a wounded bird.
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"It still rings," Ben said, and he was thirteen now, tall enough that Louisa had to look up at him, his voice deepening in fits and starts. "Doesn't it? It must still ring."
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Ansel turned the bell slowly, rain running off his hat brim. "It rings," he said. "But listen." He tapped it gently with his knuckle, and the sound that came out was dull and broken, a note with a hole in it, like a sentence that stops halfway. Tess pressed her hands to her ears, not because it was loud but because it was wrong, and Louisa felt something in her own chest answer it, a small and unreasonable grief, as if the bell had been a living thing.
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That night, after the children were asleep in the back room and the storm had spent itself and gone grumbling east, Louisa sat at the kitchen table with Joseph's journals open before her and Ansel across from her with the cracked bell between them on a folded towel. The lamplight made the crack look deeper than it was, or perhaps no deeper than it truly was; Louisa could not tell. She ran one finger along the dark line and thought of the morning the bell had first rung โ Tess, small and solemn, pulling the rope with both hands while the whole valley watched, and the clear note rolling out over the creek and the pasture and the road to town, as if the land itself were answering.
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"We can buy a new one," Ansel said quietly. "The county would pay, I think, after Inspector Moore's report. Or the valley could take up a collection. A bell from a catalogue in Chicago, brass, proper, louder than this one ever was."
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Louisa looked at him. In the year and more since he had come back to Elk Creek with Joseph's school plan in his surveyor's case, Ansel Grey had become the steadiest fact of her life โ not a husband, and they had said so plainly before the whole valley, but a partner in the work, the man who taught the children their letters in the morning and walked the fence lines with her in the evening, who knew how she took her coffee and never once asked her to be anything but what she was. His hair had gone whiter over the winter. His hands, when he set them on the table, were the hands of a man who had spent a lifetime measuring land and had finally found a piece of it worth staying on.