Marlene Blue

Chapter 44

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Wren took Marlene's brush the way it asked to be taken, by the worn part of the handle, and Amos saw her hand close around forty years of another woman's grip and did not say so. She dipped once, not twice β€” he noted it, and kept his approval silent, because the note had said nobody correct her hand while she works β€” and she leaned in to the corner where the river met the wall's edge, where Marlene's pencil had ghosted the shape and then, forty years ago, stopped, and she painted one small star in Marlene Blue.

Not in gold. Amos felt the room notice it before he did β€” the small collective intake, Ellen's hand rising halfway to her mouth and being deliberately lowered again. Wren had looked at the two colors on the tray, and at the river, and at the empty pencil sky, and chosen the blue: a star made of the river's own color, set low in the bend, where the fawn would see it when she drank β€” a reflection, the river's star, the one the water keeps. It was so exactly right that Amos understood, in one clean painless motion of the heart, why the corner had waited forty years and refused every other hand, including β€” especially β€” his own.

It was not perfect. One of its five points was longer than its brothers, and on its lower edge the brush had dragged and left the blue thin, so the plaster breathed through it like light through water.

It was placed. It sat in the exact center of the space Marlene's pencil had left for it, as if it had been outlined there in 1985 and only the color had been out on an errand. Wren sat back on her heels, looked at it with her head tipped, and said, "There" β€” and the room understood, all at once, that it had not witnessed a decoration. It had witnessed the mural being finished by the only hands it was ever waiting for.

Wren's brother, who was four, said quite loudly, "She did the star," in the manner of a herald, and that broke it, and the room came up around them in applause and laughter and the sound of forty years letting go of a held breath. Amos, still kneeling with the palette in his hands, put one hand flat against the baseboard to rise, felt Kessler's hand under his elbow again, arriving exactly on time, and let himself be helped to his feet by the boy he had once lifted out of a stockroom.

"Mr. Hartley," Wren said, at his elbow, holding the brush out to him handle-first. "Your brush."

"It's Mrs. Hartley's brush," Amos said. "And I believe it stays in this room now. In case the river needs anything else. Ellen will keep it. Keeping is her whole profession."

"I'll catalogue it," Ellen said, and her voice, for once in forty years of storytimes, did not entirely behave. "Brush, one. Hartley, M. Provenance: complete."

The cake, when it came, was cut on the low table under the boat, and Amos ate his standing by the doe and the fawn, and answered questions, and posed for photographs in front of the heron. He watched Kessler refill the juice dispensers with the competence of a man who began in stockrooms and had never fully left them. And he watched Dylan Marsh β€” who had stayed through the speeches and the note and the star and the cake β€” finally cross the room when the crowd had thinned to family, stop in front of the corner, and crouch down to look at a small blue star at a child's height, at the exact level of his own eyes when he crouched, which was of course the point, which had always been the point. He did not speak to Amos; some instinct that was new in him and good told him he did not need to. He looked a long time. Then he stood, nodded once β€” not to the room, to the star β€” and went out into the Saturday carrying the look of a man who has finally seen his paint dried.

Late light came into the reading room the way it had come in all week, westering through the high windows, and the mural took it the way it had been built to take it: the river darkened and lit at once, the gold stars warmed, the little boat's lantern stopped being paint and became a lamp again. At the river's foot, low, in the bend, where the fawn would see it when she drank, one small blue star kept the water's hours.

Amos said his goodbyes in the doorway, where Ellen was already making her mental list of what the room would need on Monday, because keeping is the hard part and Monday is keeping's true name. "You'll be wanting this," she said, and gave him back his toolbox, kept behind the desk all day. "It feels lighter."

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