The Shocking Truth Behind Four Bullets

Chapter 45

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"Then it goes in as it stands," Grant said, and signed under her reading, and the caretaker, who had said nothing during the whole proceeding, said "Well," in the tone of a man who has witnessed something satisfactory and is reserving the rest of his feelings for supper, and drove the plate away slowly down the service track, with the bright, hammered centre of it catching the last of the light every time the tailgate jolted, winking, winking, until it went round the bend by the water tower and was gone.

Willa stood a while after the dust had settled — after the dust had settled, she thought, and heard her grandfather-shaped father turn in his memory at the phrase, because it had been his, passed down like the notebook and the heron cup and everything else in her family that had survived by being used — and she looked at the empty lane where the plate had been, at the two pale marks in the sand where its legs had stood for a season, and she felt, not grief, and not triumph, but the enormous, simple interest of a place waiting to see what she would put in the space where the record had been.

"Classes," Tom Callen's voice said in her, with the patience of a man who had never once raised it to a child on a firing line. "Classes are on Saturday, Willa, and somebody is always standing at the back being told to just watch."

Autumn term at the range began on the first Saturday of September, and Willa taught her father's old junior class in her own name, on a handwritten poster that Rose had lettered at the kitchen table and pinned, scorning the association's offer of professional printing, to the door of the museum room. STANDING CLASS, SATURDAYS 8 A.M., W. CALLEN, it said, and underneath, in smaller letters and entirely Rose's invention: BEGINNERS WELCOME. NO WATCHING FROM THE BACK.

There were nine of them the first morning: six boys of various heights and certainties, a girl of fifteen whose older brother had brought her and was visibly recalculating several of his opinions, an adult beginner in his forties who apologised to the equipment, and, arriving last, at five minutes to eight, with her hair in a plait that had already begun its escape and a borrowed cap two sizes too large, a girl of about eleven named — she announced it to Willa at the door of the stand, with the formality of a small ambassador — Priya, who had been told by an uncle that girls her size came to the range to watch their brothers, and who had come anyway, on the bus, with the fare in a knotted handkerchief and a question prepared.

"Auntie at the office said I should ask if I can just watch from the back until my brother's class is done," Priya said. "He isn't here. I said he was, so they'd let me on the bus. Is the back there?" She pointed, with a seriousness that broke Willa's heart cleanly in two, toward the strip of shadow behind the last bench, the exact geography of girls at ranges since ranges were invented, the place of coats and bags and other people's afternoons.

Willa crouched, which put the escaped plait and the enormous cap at her own eye level and the gravel hard under one knee exactly as it had been hard under hers at that age, and she said what she had come, over a summer of envelopes and telephone calls and a rusty plate retiring into a museum, to be able to say to precisely this person.

"There isn't a back, Priya. Not in this class. There is a line and there is the rest of the range, and the line is where everybody in this class stands, in turn, with me beside them. Watching is for afterwards, when it's somebody else's turn and you are learning from it, which is real learning and we'll teach you to do it properly. But you did not come on a bus with your fare in a handkerchief to watch. Did you?"

Priya considered her, head on one side, with the appraising calm of a person who has been promised very little in life and checks promises for cracks before accepting delivery. "No," she said at last. "I came to do it."

"Then you are in the right class." Willa stood up, and her knees spoke about the gravel, and she was twenty-three and a record holder and a trialist for a state panel and an instructor's daughter and, above and beyond and entirely underneath all of those, exactly what the poster on the museum door said she was. "Take the cap off while I find you one that fits. Hair back, like mine — here, I'll show you the pin that works, mine fell out on the day, it's famous. Then we stand. All of us. Look at one thing only, everyone, and let everything else—"

"Be weather," said Danny Mercer, arriving at the door of the stand at that moment with two coffees and his own notebook, a new one, in which he had so far filled eleven pages with the single discipline of standing, and Priya looked at him, and at Willa, and at the line of pale gravel going out under the morning toward a new plate, small and rusty at the far end and waiting to be believed in, and Willa, handing a fitted cap to a girl who had come to do it, felt the whole long summer settle at last into the shape it had been making all along: not a day, not a plate, not a pin, not a headline corrected in a kitchen margin, though it was all of those. A name, in full, in ink, on a poster and a record and a class list, carried by the person it belonged to, out onto the gravel, into the weather, where anyone who arrived with their fare in a handkerchief could read it and stand beside it and begin.

"Be weather," Willa agreed. "Line up. First position, and take your time. We have all morning, and the dust settles when it settles."

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